I was dreaming. My sister, grandad and I was on a train for Soya district, which was northest part of the northest Island in Japan.
The train was weird because each car goes each different destination though they were all connected each other until the time when they needed to be parted.
I guess it was Sapporo station, geographically.
Since we had to go through Rumoi district and reach Soya in the end, we’d got to move to a forward car.
My sister and I got to the right car strait away but my grandad did not come yet.
“Oh no, I guess I didn’t explain him enough.”
The backward car where he standed must’ve gone to Iburi district.
He’d got to come another car ahead.
He looked at me with a smile but afterwards he’s looking at somewhere around and didn’t allow me to talk to him.
“Grandpa!!”, I yelled.
But my voice has been blown away by the noise and the wind. The cars were separated, ours went north, the other went south and my granddad had gone.
I hold my sister’s hand not to be parted anymore and the train was leaving for the northest station in Japan.
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We, our family postponed a year anniversary of his death until this summer because of the covid-19. Although it was a day before the exact the date, he appeared in my dream.
All the family went see him in the night he passed away, but except me.
Somehow, I sometimes happen to have a suicidal thought in a wider context. But I should never commit it because my granddad or the other enormous number of my ancestor gave a life to me.
One day, I’ve got to get off the train at the last stop of mine, leaving my sister.
Will my granddad be there waiting for me, or he’ll say, “it’s too early” and push me back?
Well, I’m still sleepy. Let me sleep a bit more.
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